Because the universe is widening.

The time won't flies. Twirling back to the past. Disclose the curtain of this story. If I can, I will live that time forever.  People would rather to look back, why don't we keep moving on? The universe is widening. Moving. The Earth is rotating. Moving. We live in a kinda hard life, hmm? When everything's going inversely. Black when it's white. Right when it's wrong. Honest when it's di...

Galau masa depan?

Galau. I don't know why but I prefer galau about my future than galau-in someone out there who doesn't even know my existence. Yah, sebenernya ini galau galau terselubung. Entah kenapa, mungkin semenjak naik kelas, pertanyaan pertanyaan semacam "Nanti mau kuliah dimana, na?" atau "udah kepikiran belum,...

As same as a love.

A waves. Up. Down. Nothing. As same as a love. A waves. Getting swept away. As same as a love....

Nobody Knows? Yes.

Nobody knows "the real" me. Nobody knows how many times I've sat in my room, and cried all night long. How many times I've lost hope. How many times I've been let down. How many times I've thought about this unfairness, this life, my parents, everythi...

An update.

Hello. Now I'm updating in Mrs. Atty's english lesson this afternoon. Hahahahaha. Have a nice da...

"Tak ada yang lebih tabah, dari hujan bulan Juni..."

Hujan Bulan Juni (Sapardi Djoko Damono) tak ada yang lebih tabahdari hujan bulan Junidirahasiakannya rintik rindunyakepada pohon berbunga itu tak ada yang lebih bijakdari hujan bulan Junidihapusnya jejak-jejak kakinyayang ragu-ragu di jalan itu tak ada yang lebih arifdari hujan bulan Junidibiarkannya yang tak terucapkandiserap akar pohon bunga itu &nbs...

It's 1 AM

It's 1 AM No, I'm not gonna ask you who do you love. It's 1 AM I'm awake and think what happened. Or what should be happened. It's 1 AM I don't even know what that is. It's 1 AM Your eyes talked to me. But I couldn't heard. It's 1 AM Can you just speak clear...

Future is comiiiiiing!

If there were 9999 reasons to quit, and give up, I know there was only one reason to stay and keep fighting this life. Chase our dreams. End the past. Stand up and smile. Take a very deep breath and go on. By the way, the time flies so fast, doesn't it? It feels like yesterday I was still in the elementary, with my red skirt and my colorful socks. But in fact, in the next year I'll be 12 grader and...

You actually trick your own life, guys.

Life isn't fair. Yap, because that's all I've ever known. Like I've said, thousand times. I studied as hard as I can. Stayed up all night. Read read read and practise practise practise. I won't forgive myself if I didn't do my best, at least I've tried. Make a black mark under my eyes. But they? Just keep calm, grab a phone, Googling, texting, bbm, and something disgusting like that. Or in France,...

Memoires!

 I just downloaded this application from Google Play in my phone. Yap, Memoires. Now I finally found something I can tell and I can write, freely. No worry. Save. Keep in secret. It even has a password! I always try to write everything before sleep at night. There's no galau in this blog, anymore, I hope. Lo...

A Blackhole?

I'm shining, you're glowing. Yes, in a different way. I used to be that shining, but not anymore. Maybe now I'm just a blackhole in your prespective. Invisible and seems not real. If so, I'm telling you, blackhole has a hidden super power. You haven't realise it, have y...

I miss you all, Facetious X-8 2011-2012!

Ya, mumpung libur nih. Pas iseng iseng ngeliatin meja belajar, tadinya sih niat pengen ngerapihin eh nemu kotak bening isinya DVD, yakkk pemirsa.... Dvd sepuluh delapan! Akhirnya punya waktu buat nonton ini lagi:) Kangen banget sama kalian semua. Emang sih masih bisa ketemu setiap hari, tapi rasanya beda. Suasananya beda. Dan kita gak dalam satu ruangan yang sama, itu dia yang bikin atmosfernya...

"When you leave here, don't forget why you came."

Sekilas, quote ini emang biasa aja. Emang sebenernya cuma buat kelulusan gitu. Tapi ayo dicoba doooong dicobaaaa lihat dan baca dan telusuri dan selidiki dan teliti dan kalo perlu interogasi lebih dalem lagi.... Hem. Apasih. Ya, kadang seseorang dateng terus pergi gitu aja, padahal awalnya dia punya tujuan kenapa dia dateng. Tujuannya muliaaaaaa banget. Kenapa dia ikut. Kenapa dia bergabung. Oke,...

Naik kelas itu gak cuma pindah kelas kali....

Naik kelas. Ciye, yang bangga gitu udah naik kelas. Asik dong ya, udah punya adik kelas? Tapi, menurut saya, naik kelas itu gak cuma sekedar lulus dari kelas sebelumnya dan pindah ke jenjang berikutnya. Naik kelas itu harusnya naik level. Ibaratnya game, level yang lebih tinggi pasti lebih susah, kan? Butuh strategi baru yang lebih baik. Kalo game over, pasti penasaran dan kita ulang lagi terus sampe...

Knock, knock.

Tik, tok. The tap of my heart beats. Knock the inequity, knock this life. I  hear something you can't hear, or maybe something you try not to hear. I curse your fake innocence....

Happy Birthday!

Yap. Maybe it's a superrrr late update. June 3rd was my birthday. The time flies so fast and I just realise I'm now 16 years old. Thank God, you still gives me this life, sometimes it's a beautiful life however. Thanks for all your kind wishes, greets, and all the "okeh"s. I'm so thankful that you...

will you?

Yah, it's really really hard for me to tell this, write it down and everyone will knows. I just can't hide it away for any longer. I want to go to ITB as my next destination. Maybe you've knew it. I dreamed it since a long time ago, and now its so hard to forget it all. My mother said to me, that I, as a woman, had to take care of my self. Then, I got to stay in Bogor. Maybe forever? So it means that...

Hitam dan Putih

Hitam dan putih. Seorang gadis kecil diujung gang, dengan baju sederhana. Menatapku lurus dengan mata coklat yang pudar. Gemerincing receh yang menjadi nada. Hitam dan putih. Kakek itu mengusap peluh yang sudah menjadi darah. Sorot matanya membakarku hidup hidup. Aku telah menjadi abu diujung jalan itu. Hitam dan putih, Sebuah ironi. Adakah memang hati nurani itu pernah a...

We're fabulous and crazy, and so, we're obviously awesome!

FACETIOUS: FABULOUS CRAZINESS OF TEN EIGHT IS OBVIOUSLY AWESOME. dari kiri bawah:  Gharyn, Rai, Dean, Anjar, Aryo, Wira, Sule, Aqlima dan adik-adiknya, Nadhila, Nita, Bella, Tata, Nyayu alay, Husna, Dhia, Linda, Farah, Khansa, Fathimah, Prita, Adnan, Biyal, Calvin dan Chelsea lagi dirumahnya. fotonya...

An irony, yes?

The moon creates a thousand word to speak, But the sun makes it hard to say. I know you're there. You know I'm here. It's like an irony. Are we in the other planet or somethi...

Happy Birthday, Mrs. Herna!

"Who's Mrs. Herna?" She's my ex-english teacher. Eh no, she always be my teacher. One of the best I've ever met. Today is her birthday and I wish I can send her a "Happy Birthday" or something. I miss her so much. There's no english teacher like her in my highschool. they miss her too! I wish her all...

Just stop and rewind.

If my life is a tape, I'll go back, back, back, back and back. Even if it's suck (yah obviously you knew what will happen after), I want to play our song as long as I can, again and again. "Sometimes I wanna press the rewind button. Not for change the past, but..... for something I never...

Seperti Planet Venus.

Kau seperti Venus. Tertutup atmosfer yang tebal, membuat berjuta pertanyaan. Misterius. Biru, tetapi pan...

Flashback.

Aku menutup mataku Menembus relung-relung waktu Aku yang dingin dibekukan waktu; diselimuti air hangat pesonamu Yang tidak pernah berubah, tidak akan pernah. Mengapa aku kembali? Kau tertawa renyah diujung sana, Yang terdengar seperti detak-detak bom waktu. Tersimpan dalam saku bajuku. Aku takut mati Aku pasti akan mati Beberapa bulan yang menjadi detik. Tik, tik, tik, dan kemudian berhenti. Berhenti...

Like a Bridge.

Love Bridge, Pulau Tidung. January 3 2012/12:13 Be changed is the main part of the life. Like a bridge, just follow the change and you'll stop when you find your destiny.&nbs...

Why?

It's like I wait for you to rescue me. I'm waiting in this silent, alone.But you never come back. Why? I'm nearly aimless, without the lights you gave.I just want to ask you one question in my whole life, "why?"Why you put me in this feeling?  This shit makes me look so melancholy,So disgusting.It makes me look like I'm your love beggar. even if it's tr...

Unfairness

I feel so desperate. I can't, I really cannot do it. Sometimes I'm just thinking, "God, why you put me in this disgusting situation? I cannot do it, too hard, and its definitely unfair..."  Life's hard, dude. I know exactly, God is fair. There's a valuable thing we can take dan learn, always. But, in this time, I have not found the fairness yet. Not y...

Am I lost?

The time is running, ruining my life. If I closed my eyes, desperately, then the time will stops breathe me. Stop breathe my heart, and fill my lungs. Dark. Silent. Am I lost? I walk in a tunnel, without the light at the end of it. So blind. Once again, am I lost? Or maybe I'm just dreaming? My tears hang up on my eye. Froze. Chills my cheek, disintegrate my iris. Can you feel exactly the way I feel? You...

"Let go of the past and go for the future. Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you imagined." Live the life you imagined? How if the "life I imagined" is live the life with you?&nb...

Astronomy!

Well, wish me luck. May Allah bless me. Alway...